Eva N

• Evan is...

ookay. replacing what i wrote before.

i wrote this in my journal after visiting evan a week or so ago.

being in evan's room is a constant shuffle from couch to chair to floor, from computer to guitar, ani to jeff buckley to ben harper to laughing, to singing, to dancing to totally serious. i'm really content. people like evan or rather, just evan, because i've never met anyone like him are a constant source of comfort. everything he does is so conscious. we drove to the beach last night and had some of the best talks i've ever had with anyone. i am constantly collecting opinions from older and wiser people about drugs and alcohol, and evan had a lot of good words to say. it's funny, how the people who have THOUGHT about it tend not to drink. i realized why i haven't just made up my mind not to drink. it's because i don't want to be lonely. i already feel like such an anomoly everywhere i go; homeschooled, unschooled, young, female, baha'i', and i didn' t want something else to set me apart. something else to have to explain every where i go. i want to be able to be like everyone else and drink and just have fun. it hasn't felt right, but i wanted to be able to. but talking to evan has pretty much reaffirmed that if i'm different, then i have something of a responsibility to uphold that. and i'm not afraid of it anymore. maybe i'm being dramatic, acting like i am a chosen one or something. but all my life i've had people telling me that you, when you have an above average intelligence, have to be prepared for some loneliness. and i don't think that i'm all that smarter than people, i just think a lot. evan basically quoted myself back at me last night when he said life is a fucking challenge. it's hard. but he's wrapped up already too much in trying to figure out reality without mixing up trying to escape from reality also. evan lives with purpose. save me from meandering aimlessly, please. being useless is probably the curse of human kind. just being in his room gets me thinking. his ordertochaos and back again piles. i guess he just reminded me that there is a POINT to working hard at getting through life with integrity. i'm throwing away my cigarettes. he said that in london, people held shitty jobs, only pacified with the thought that on the weekend they could get high and escape it. he said that's living a cop out. numbing yourself on weekends to survive the week doesn't change anything for you. or for anyone else. when he was a kid he walked on the bottom of the swimming pool, in a trash can, holding down the air. recovering einstien's brain makes him feel the same way. he says, as we walk down the beach and the sand turns to magic beneath our feet. and life isn't so much a fairytale with him, but a book like Peaceful Warrior, Writing Down The Bones. a tale filled with beauty and the possibility of more beauty, and a lot of trial and error, and also the safety and security and anticipation in being pushed passed your limits but knowing it has to happen. and this is the right time, and place. his room is so him, and i feel like that <insert picture of a guy walking on a selfsupported tightrope> like it's just me out here on this crazy cliff, and yeah it's scary, but beautiful and i have the tools to survive. i just have to trust myself and be willing to do some crazy shit. the more i look at that picture the more i love it. it's the perfect metaphor for this crazy life we lead.

(new stuff: evan, you're worth it, more than anyone i've ever met. you keep me on my toes, make me think about things. i remember my goals when i watch you working so hard on yours. you really are a Joyful Boy, a perfect balance of enthusiasm, goofiness, and enough maturity to honestly change your life and the world. i've never been prouder than listening to you sing. thanks for everything evan.)

A damn good dancer, and he's hysterical when he's learning a song on the guitar. I remember teaching him "Buildings and Bridges" and "Independance Day" (both by Ani) at Marina's party, and he was just really funny. And then after everyone had watched Moulin Rouge too many times, we tried to tango and mostly I just ended up looking stupid, because he seemed to know what he was doing. Evan is just cool beyond words. What more can I say?

Wonderful. and hell funny, hansome, charming, a "great" driver *grin* and really funny to be around! I love the way he talks and knows so much about anything and everything and how he loves Ani! woot! um...I can't wait to see him again and his wonderful! *hugs to Evan*

An awesome guy, who doesnt hesitate to say exactly what he feels, because he doesnt have the fear in his head that says "evan if you do that than this person wont like you". Evan and i have always had lotsa fun together, especially when he cut my hair, (even though when he was done i faintly resembled a flattened opossum). Evan is someone that makes you laugh naturally, and when he laughs it makes you laugh harder. im glad to have met Evan, and every now and then when i hear of some of his latest escapades, i wish i could have been there also. Cheers Evan! ~nate~

An all around funtabulous guy. He's been really nice to me ever since I met him in Monroe Park the first day of camp. He just walked up to me, introduced himself, and started talking, doing the running commentary and having me meet people. Evan's always laughing and smiling and being a total goof : ). He and Joe held an awesome Barnraising and he (among others) encouraged (or should I say cajoled) me to read my poems at the talent show and I'm really glad I did. He danced with me at the "Prom" although I insisted that I didn't know what the hell I was doing and he made a point of saying goodbye to me on the last day. Evan is sweet, intelligent, outgoing, handsome, and stylin. Oh, and I absolutely love his McShit shirt. - Kim W.

in posession of a whole wack of my camp photos. ;)

Evan rhymes with heaven. Truly. Anyway, Evan is one of the handful of people from camp who remain hugely important to me after camp is over... I think about Evan a lot, miss him, and remind myself how damn cool he is. Evan is one of my favorite writers, all about quality of quantity. His poems are fabulous, they show how intelligent, passionate, and articulate he is. He is someone who makes an impact on everything he touches. Almost always a good impact. I can hardly think of anyone who I would rather talk to or spend time with. ~summer

Evan is freakin good! He's so hot, and deep, i mean he is truly insightful. i think it must be in my future (cause if it's not i'm gonna cry) to hang with evan a hella lot more. he reminds me of ferris bueller in that cute, "innocent mischief maker" way. he names his keelex boxes. ~samara

evan has a really adorable smile, and really cute birdhead hair. he also has a cute blush, and he seems like a really thoughtful, articulate guy from the few times that i hung out with him. he really seems to want to know who you are, not who you are on the outside. plus he has the McShit t-shirt. ROCK, evan! ;) *hugs* *k*a*t*e*

Evanevanevan.. at first at camp i thought i would never really talk to him cause everyone else would be all the time but then he was so much fun i had a lot of good laughs with evan and he seems like a wonderful beautiful boy. I wish i got to know him better and eventualluy soon i wanna see him again.. hes our little snapping turtle,heh. rachel

Evan is sweet and cute and nice and silly and funny and and and... right, specifics... Evan has a wonderful ability to cut through crap and remind people when they're (we're) taking ourselves too seriously. He will stick with something unless it's absolutely ridiculous and then quit, which is a talent very few people have. He is a marvelous dancer. I can't say enough about that. I love his laugh. And he lives near me!!!!! -marina

Evan rocks! He's extremely funny, charming, has the greatest laugh and smile. He's so much fun. There is no being depressed when Evan's around. ~Erin

evan was very helpful in our group. also, he can be goofy and yet i felt that i could rely on him...most of the time. he was also fun on my green tortoise bus down to san fran. evan just basically rocks. jessica (witch baby)

--- Evan was on my bus that went from Eugene to the camp itselfand he was having a bit of trouble with the P.A system. *snicker* But anyway. ;p As usual, the people that I like (crush or otherwise) I usually have a very difficult time talking to. And so I grew to like Evan plenty (crush and otherwise) and so I wrote him a little letter. Well, I walked up to him, handed it to him, walked awayand he didn't talk to me or say hello to me or anything for a long while after that. I was getting sort of a letdown feeling, that he didn't mention it at allwell, finally we were both in the lodge and I kept looking at himsort of...willing him to come over and talk to me. So finally he DIDand it turned out that he hadn't talked to me about the letter because he didn't know who I was. *big grin* So we talked some and then I talked to Dian some (which of course meant that I ended up talking to Evan tooaren't they two-for-one?) And now I really miss him. Even though I'm sure he doesn't remember me that much or is thinking about me, I miss him a lot anyway. I think very highly of himhe did such a great job talking to everyone and spreading himself out. He is gorgeous and is adorableespecially with Dian. (I'm eager for my film to be developed...some cute pictures in there of them, I think.) Put simply; Evan is a very beautiful person, in all ways that a person can be beautiful. And if he reads this, I think I might take up living under a rock. ~Jasmine~

Evan was patient and nice to me even though I didn't remember who he was for the first four or five times I saw him! He kept having to say his name to me. He seems like he'd have a good sense of humor so he was probably quite amused :) Also, he seems very together and good with people, which is a good quality to have. -wanderlust

Evan is the first person i would pick to baby-sit my camp photos, were they to need baby-sitting (which they don't) - cory

Evan is totally amazing!!!!! He makes people laugh, look at the good side of things & feel so at ease around him. I love talking with him. He is a really funny, silly, uplifting, very caring, cute, loving, beautiful, sweet, fun, wonderful & adoreable guy! A great person to *really* talk & hang out with. He is fuck'n hot!(I think we all know that by now!) I love his voice... He knows how to dance, he's got "the moves"! He's such an awesome guy! He's the biggest fan of Ani there ever was! He has a really great name, for underwear...Evan, like a namebrand, on boxers & stuff... can't you just see that!! : ) heehee... He knows what he wants in life & he's going for it, with all the enthusiasm he has! He is so real & true to himself & others. Very honest. I can't say enough about Evan... He rocks my world!!!! I love ya, dude!!! ~Selena

Evan. because his name rhymes with heavon, he's cool. it's one of those unwritten rules, that your like things you rhyme with. it has alot to do with stars and mumbo jumbo voodoo dolls and the like. the result is basically, that Evan is a fun guy who has interesting thoughts that are fun. and sometimes he tells you them, and you hear them, and out of the blue your having fun! plus he's better than me or Summer at monopoly. -cory

I just noticed i've written on this page a few times. thats cool. becuase i have nothing better to do. and if i did i wouldn't do them anyways. Evan be neat-cory

Evan is a baaad ass motha fucka!!! i can relate or unrelate to evan in a way that trips me out. i hope to meet this boy one day. werd. -Jay

Evan is one funny dude. The first time I met him I was a little bit intimidated, despite being a returning camper. I'd just heard things about him in the few hours between ariving at Monroe Park, and his arriving at camp after his train was late (session 2 98). Somhow he seemed like more of an oldtimer than I was, despite equal amounts of Expirience. - Lorin

evan is a SUPERFREAK, SUPERFREAK. he's suppa freeeeakaaaay! (the kind you don't take home to mama.)~love sarah c.

I don't really know what to write, this page has used the word beautiful more times than any other I've ever seen. I must say though that Evan, you totally blew me away when I met you. I mean absolutely. Your tidepooling workshop was the best and I loved it that I could hang out and check out these awesome creatures and get some first hand experiance. I really want to stay in touch with you and if we don't keep talking I'll be absolutely heart broken. After all, how often does a musical loving marine biologist wanna-be meet a fellow fish lover who tap dances? Besides, you look DAMN sexy in a wet suit! -Zaria