Letters To List

Wills Letter(s) To the List. Last update: 1:13pm Friday October 26

These are the letters I have sent to the list, or am going to send, anyway. I think the content is pretty important, but judge for yourself.

Letter One: Incomplete

Title: An open letter is A message for all

Hello Again, everyone.

First I will say, I agree with adam, for the most part. Yes, he (you do) have a speech pattern which is a combonation of DebateSpeak and gangstatalk, making it very difficult for some people to understand you. I dont personaly mind since speak our language fluently (and was instramental in developing it) but in terms of communication with the people on the list, it just isnt that effective.

Truthfuly this is because most people on the list just dont care. Most campers/unschoolers are totaly disintrested in politics ON THIS LEVEL. I am not saying we, as a group, are politicly ignorant. We very clearly are not. But the level on which you and I are speaking, Adam, is far deeper than most PEOPLE easly think. We are calling into question things that people take for granted, and that pisses them off. They respond by ignoring our message or by sending angry replies, representing for things that I dont think they honestly supposrt, if they thought about it. How do we deal with this? How do we prevent our message from being ignored? Its like saying 'Fuck!' People will be offended, but they won't think about it. The change you are able to affect is insignifiant, non existant. So, we must find a new way of addressing these people.

Actualy, thats not nessacary. According to Your ideals, fantom, we must find a new way. I dont personaly care. If they disagree, thats fine. I am not intrested in spreading the ideals to people who dont care. I am not intrested in public image. I think I can say that most of the people who met me are ok with me, as a person, even if they disagree with my politics as stated in my posts. If that is true, than what diffrence does it make? And if I am not acccepted, than fuckem. What matters is change, is living the way I think is best. We generaly agree on how that 'best way' is, but disagree on how to reach it. You need acceptance from thoes around you. You do not see it this way, but you are infact doubtful of your own ability to survive independently.

This may be a justified fear, but there also may be no alternative than to survive. Think about it. We are speaking to so of the most open, intelegent and liberal teens in the counrty, and most of what we get is ignorance and anger. This probably has something to do with our past. We are somewhat violent debaters, and expressing our views honestly in the past has turned many people away from us, to the point were one girl, a couple days before camp, came up to me and said 'are you this will of the list?' to which I replied, ''yes, the famous/imfamous he I be." I think asked why she wanted to know know, to which she said 'oh, I just wanted to tell you that the best part of my day is often deleting you long messages without reading them.' And I am not an under chaming person. That type of think takes real malevolence towards me.

But thinking about it, I have to say it is rather apparent that I desire acceptance too, I desire comrades too. Strongly I wish that people my age, people older and younger than myself would see this wisdom that I see, see the nessisty and beauty of honesty, of friendship and love. Of rebelion.

(Your heart is an organ the size of your fist. Keep Loving. *Keep Fighting*)

But when people deny the truth I see, I dont try to tone it down, I dont think how I can acoumplish the same goal in a npon violent way, I think, 'pity, the system has them' and keep throwing the glass bottles slipperty with hot petro chemicals.

I have two goals, one straight foward, the other more invovled. My first goal is happiness. This can be acheaved by living with total love and acceptance. Living with total love and acceptance is best acheaved in a tribal anarchy. We both agree on this, though in different terms. My second goal is to word towads my first, to push it into reality, in any and every way I want to, meaning any and every way that mkes me happy.

The reason the second is complicated is that often it means destroying, fighting, killing even. To many people this is the oposate of happiness