Luke Rolka

Hey! I haven't changed this page since, like, July of 2000...

I'm living in Oregon, which I have moved to from Michigan. I'm having some difficulty with this. The main fact is that I grew up my entire life in Michigan. My wonderful family lives in Michigan. Most of my friends live in that area. If it weren't for Mel (since she's my girlfriend, that's a given), Robyn, Rick and some other people around here, I'd probably die a horrible death of lonliness. I'm always saying that I'll die when I try something new. It's not really new for me to live away from family... I've already done that for five months in 2000, but I didn't really take on many responsibilities expected of an "ADULT." I just stayed at Mel's parent's house and things were peachy. Now if I want to stay here, I have to get a job and then an apartment. It's exciting on one side: If I get a job, I can have money, which means then I can afford the finer things of life... like food, for example. Also, I'll get the incomparable experience of living on my own terms (mostly), away from parental supervision. Looking for a job ('specially full-time) is a long, drawn-out task for me. This job thing looms above me like a lion that I'm having trouble taming. 40+ hour weeks. Wheeehoo! And then I have to worry about how much my wages will be, how much expenses will be, and most of all, what my free-time will be like. Will I have free-time? Ye gods.

I try to keep my head clear and my outlook happy. I am on the road of life, and I must remember that. Yet, I also remember that the road of life is also the road to the grave. I want to make sure this life was worth its trouble. I'm sure it is. I'm sure.

-Luke R.

• I don't know you,(or when you wrote this) but it looks like you are in the middle of a tough time, so here's a hug and good luck!