Not Okay

 Someday I’ll look back
 And I’ll see what I’ve done
 And I’ll rationalize it
 I’ll understand it 
 I’ll appreciate it 
 I’ll convince myself 
 It was all for my own good
 Everything that happened
 But for now
 Nothings right
 I can’t have anything
 Without a fight
 I can’t have a breath
 I can’t have a smile
 I can’t have your sole attention 
 For just a little while
 I can’t have any comfort
 I can’t have the love the I crave 
 And when I wake up in the mornings
 Not rotting in bed 
 Is always just a close save 
 And if you loved me
 You’d be here 
 You’d make it okay 
 You’d let me know 
 That I’m strong enough
 To make it another day
 Because the prospect 
 Of tomorrow
 Is no longer beautiful
 And nobody even wants 
 To remember today 
 And all I want
 Oh god
 All want
 Is someone 
 To just tell me its okay
 It isn’t wrong
 To feel this way
 The fear isn’t wrong
 The anger isn’t wrong
 And the rage isn’t wrong
 The lust isn’t wrong
 And there isn’t any wrong 
 All I want is someone 
 To tell me its okay
 To convince me its alright
 To convince me that they’ll stay
 Because everyone else I know
 Just ends up running away
 And its plaguing me now
 Its not okay 
 Its not okay
 Look at the ruins
 I’ve left behind today 
 Believe me
 Its not okay
 None of us are okay
 We aren’t even sure
 Its going to BE okay
 And someone needs to be here now
 Someone needs to stay 
 Because we know just how hard it is
 To live
 When its not okay
 None of us are okay
 Our scars aren’t okay
 Our bloods not okay
 Our tears aren’t okay
 Our rage isn’t okay 
 None of its okay
 And we know it
 But its there
 And it won’t go away. 

 Nothings okay. 

~Jasmine

• Honey, honey. Oh god. Please give me a call. I know its tough; I understand, and I'm here if you need to talk.

~Maggie

 I'm okay right now, my maggie doll. I will call if I'm not. ~J.