Only Human

It's only human to...

• have kinky fantasies against your willabout people you never wanted to see naked
• think your pain is worse than everyone else's
• try to hide
• think you understand yourself
• try to understand everyone else
• cry when things change
• try to make things more beautiful
• allow what others say to change you, even when you didn't intend to
• fear both freedom and dependance, because others say you should
• think you're "not good enough"
• try to get into relationships even if you know they'll eventually end up in heartbreak
• think you don't have the right to feel pain
• eye perfection lustily
• think that another person's opinion or pain is invalid
• fall in love, and be hurt when it doesn't work out
• feel guilty for being bad, and then feel guilty for being good, and then feel guilty for being guilty
• turn identifying personal traits into masks and poses
• hide when someone says something that hurts you
• try to hide your ugly bits
• be an inconsiderate bastard
• skip over many of the items on long lists
• make mistakes, and then berate yourself for making the mistakes, and then berate yourself some more because you don't want to fix the mistakes
• pretend not to care about something because you don't want to be disappointed
• Distance yourself from others so they won't distance themselves from you first
• say "It's only human!" ;)
• feel not-understood.
• be yourself.
• act selfish and ornery and want people to love you anyway.
• be competative, especially with someone you love who dissed/dumped you.
• want people to be honest with you, and be hurt when you find out it "was all" a lie.
• want to kill someone for hurting you.
• bleed.
• need friends to take your side.
• hurt from all the hatred in the world, but still knowing that you have so much of it inside you
• dream of a better world
• yearn for heaven
• not want to be dissed by anyone, especially around people you like.
• be confused as all hell, especially when hormones are involved.
• become scared and hurt when people you admire reject you
• go a little mad sometimes
• to want to be beautiful
• to want to be wanted
• to want to be noticed
• to want to be loved
• to bitch and moan
• be completely happy one minute and completely miserable the next... for the exact same reason
• love
• try your hardest
• do something surprisingly well the first time
• work at something until you get it, even when it's 'impossible'
• fight hatred and bigotry and all the isms