Serious Growing In The New Year

Here's a place for serious New Years Resolutions... not overblown expectations, but things that you plan on working on, or changing about yourself.

Some of my goals for this year are to try to keep track of how much money I'm spending and on what. I'm WAY to good at just spending it. I'm also trying to be more resposible about doing my chores at home and I'm trying to be nicer and get a little closer to my two younger brothers. I'm trying to get in shape a bit and also to do more things on my days off as opposed to laying around all day reading, which while being a cozy kind of thing to do I always kinda regret it at the end of the day. I'm trying to get really good at playing my guitar so I can jam at camp next year too.

Ruth

One of my goals for the new year is to deepen and strengthen my relationship with James, my darling husband-to-be. I want to work on being honest and open to him about my feelings and thoughts... which requires, first of all, to be honest and open with myself about those things... so I'm doing a lot of praying, meditating, self-witnessing and writing. Also, I'm working on becoming less critical, of myself and of James (and others). I have very high expectations of myself as far as behavior goes... and I have found it a bit of a challenge to accept when James does things that I consider "wrong" or "inconsiderate". Although I might discuss things that seriously bother me, there's a lot of little things that just should be his choice about how he lives, and I'm working to let go of them, not even mentioning what they are too him. Partly, it is by letting go of him, allowing him to be himself, that I can do the same to myself... let go of some of my high expectations and demands, and accept that sometimes I'm going to look foolish, and do things wrong.

Other of my goals pertain to things like eating healthier, excercising and meditating more often. And I want to keep up on my work for my classes, and learn tons. Tons, and tons, and tons.

- Christy

Wow. I really like this page.

Last year was my year of wrenching introspection and over-analyzation. This year I want to get a better sense of who I am to the world, how I am going to communicate with other people and make them understand the enigma that is myself. This means a careful balance of getting out of my comfort zone, yet at the same time not doing anything that feels "wrong". And, like Christy said, I really have to let go of my expectations for perfection, in myself and others.. but that might take more than a year.

I don't know if I'll be able to meditate I still have a problem staying still for too long, and my thoughts race through my head like wild horses. However, I want to keep eating well (which I am doing), and I want to go to Aikido as often as possible.

I want to let my friends know they are loved and apprieciated, yet know that I have to take care of myself as well.

~Eire