Super Magic Taco Girl

Ok, ok, so I know this is copying Jaz and Kim, and Rachael and Naomi a bit.....but it's a cool idea! Zaria my love, this page is just for you because you are my wonderful Super Magical Taco girl, and I can post here whenever I miss you, or write you something, or whatever.

1-29-02

 My other dreams last night were about our house.  There was one where the
two of us went out and took a bunch of mattresses from the dump.  But we
didn't know how to disinfect them, so we ended up with 20 mattresses on our
front yard (our front yard!  OUR!!!!) and we hosed them off with bleach.  
 The other dream was about the inside of our house.  You and I were sitting
on a couch together just talking, watching Mel paint red and yellow and
blues on top of a murual of vibrent colors on the opposite wall.  There was
light streaming in through the kitchen window, and I saw our crazy pots and
pans hanging down from the ceiling.  I can't tell you excited it makes me to
think about us creating someplace uniquely *us* because you're so very
unique, and any place that slightly resembles you is bound to be more
beauitiful then my dreams can make it.  I miss you!--Candra
 

1-29-02

I miss you so much darling darling wife and when I read this I was crying and smiling so big. I can't wait until we get our house together. We're going to have one of those coffee tables thats a hand holding a peice of glass up, and an egg chair and a baseball glove and lava lamps everywhere and footprints on the table and the plates and we're going to decorate and love and hug and everything will be wonderful just you wait! Color and love and beauty and poetry and funky patterns on dishes and sex manuals from books-a-million!!! loveyoumissyoucan'twaittoseeyou- Zaria

 
 1-30-02

Candra, I don't know when you'll read this, I love you very very much,more so every day in fact, and I think you're wonderful and beautiful. I know that people have done you wrong lately and if I could I would smite every one of them down with the amazing power of Zaria...however I haven't got the money for plane or bus tickets. I want nothing more than to be able to have you happy and warm and cozy for the rest of your days and thats the way it'll be at the taco if i can have anything to do with it. With the occasional love triangle police raid shoplifting spree and chaotic drama, just for color. Zaria thinks you're dreamy

 
 1-30-02

 God, I just started sobbing when I read this.  I surprised the amazing
power of Zaria can't reach this far, it's  strong enough to take away half
the tears I was just pouring over my keyboard and replace them with a
smile.....all the way from Ohio.  Fucking Ohio.  Come move in with me.  You
always make me feel better.  I love you.--Candra
 
 2-08-02

Dearest wonderful Wife of Mine,

 I don't know when you'll get this but the need to type takes me over and I
have to write to you. I got half-assed info from colby today, basically more
of what I already knew. So here I sit, at 10 oclock at night wondering where
my pants are and thinking about how much fun I could be having if only you
were here with me.We could invite all sorts of scary ohioans who want to
meet all my campers and lay around in people piles talking about the meaning
of the universe and our plans for cold taco. Speaking of which, I bought a
monkey lamp today! my first contribution to the beautiful tacky disarray of
our home. its a tiny little lamp that is a monkey in a suit holding two
candles. I love it, its cool as hell and I simply had to have it.
 love you candra!

 Zaria
 
 Aghghgghghghghg!  I didn't CALL YOU the other night!  I am SO SORRY.  I
didn't get home till about 11 and I didn't want to wake you up!  Please
please please forgive me!  I will call you on Monday night, I swear it, and
tell you all the details of my wonderful valentines day, and you can tell me
about yours.  I may be in Lousiville on the 24th, and maybe I could swing up
to Ohio at the same time.  Probably not, but I'll talk to my mom about it. 
I miss you so much!  You would have loved bumming around with me and
Jennifer yesterday.  I can't wait to see the monkey lamp and go pottery
shopping with you!  I wish I could go furniture shopping right now!  I love
love love you--

 Candra
 

I love you Candra. You'll make it.