Whatcha Gonna Do

What do you need to do before you die? What have you achieved and what is left yet to learn? How many miles do you need to earn? how will you live knowing you will die?

Dawn Smith First written Mon, 04 Oct 1999, updated Feb 2002

• Go through the Panama Cannel on a houseboat. (I still wanna do this)
• Dye my hair, some or all of it, a strange colour and not worry about what other people think. (done)
• Do things that scare me, and not because i think they are "good for me" but because i value the experience... (done but never finished)
• Read everything Wordsworth has ever written, in no particular order. (I've made a start on it.)
• Visit the Galagapos islands
• Swim in every ocean on earth. (3 down)
• Lead my own Ranger unit one day. (I have a spark unit)
• Know how to take apart and fix a computer...
• Fall in love and maintain a healthy relationship with everyone in my life. (we're working on it)
• If i ever get the guts, start using Radical Honesty in my life. (done, i think)
• Paint, and paint a lot, of everything. Water colour, oil, murals on walls and fences. (I've painted tables, fences, tape cassets, cardboard,light switches and walls)
• To own a house one day with people i love and have it full of pets children animals lizards birds half finished science projects with lots of big trees and wild forests. Have space in my house to share it with my friends and family, to have parties and classes and sleep overs.
• To learn how to cry and express my emotions in a healthy way. To be comfortable in a relationship with someone i can get totally pissed at, tell them as much, express it live it, and get over it.
• To one day learn the secret of forgiveness. (practise)
• Be passionate about existence, all of it, every glorious detail. I forget who it was (Collet? I think some writer like that) but she said "You will do foolish things in life, but do them with enthuasium". Do lots of things in life, and do them with enthuasium.
• Work with a team to organize a large event, either Pagan, Homeschooling, or Guiding. or maybe one day all 3.
• Learn metalsmithing and make my own bowl.

• fall in love (done, i do believe)
• learn how to use willpower
• have chilren/be a mother
• build or partially build my own house
• go to a party (jungle/drum and bass)with brian and relax enough to let myself go, and dance to the a-m-a-zing vibrations
• gain some kind of spirituality...figure out what i believe in spiritually
• learn how to get mad at my boyfriend without feeling guilty...continue to grow with him to the point where i can be angry and he doesn't break down and realizes it's not the end of the world.
• see the world
• make mistakes and learn from them
• stop smoking cigarettes, and more importantly, WANT to stop smoking cigarettes
• take care of my body
• take care of my mind
• never get stuck in a place,moment,proffesion in my life that i don't like. REMEMBER:i can always change my path.

sarah

damn, i could die now and it wouldn't all be for nothing, i think. but it would be a blur. literally. what's left? they will say, 'oh, she was a crazy/quiet/singy/floaty/remarkable/blendableintothebackground/funny/pretty/wild/reckless/careful girl.'

therefore,

jafe's list.

things to do once or twice or thrice

• shave head
• become rich
• live in poverty
• join the circus
• go to india
• run away and leave everything behind
• tell someone exactly what i think of them
• write a novel
• be at peace with myself
• learn to be a bullshitter
• rescind virginity
• start something big, like a business or a country
• change someone's life for the betterer
• have a kid
• build something
• write music
• die young in about a hundred years
• live well
• find one big central life statement and follow it
• be a real actress

things to do often

• learn to let go
• make people laugh
• mess it all up
• start over
• cry
• dance
• trust
• trust people
• trust myself
• trust God
• play with children
• paint beautiful, wild, horrific things
• pray
• be dependable
• tell the truth
• have a purpose
• lie beautifully
• get into fights
• quit writing lists and do it already.

here we go.