Conquering A Hard Battle

we have a page on FightingAHardBattle but we dont have a page saying the battels we have won! thats what you do here... do tell what is something that you have conquered? something you proud of... -Heather

I finally believe that I am beautiful, and that my life is worth living. I am all right.

I'm not heart-stoppingly shy anymore. Thank god. ~Rosie

• complete ditto. Wonderful feeling, isn't it?

One day in the summer, when I was in Eugene, I walked for a long time in the rain and thought about death. Cars would pass by on the road and there was this voice screaming in my head jump in front of that truck!, but my feet stopped moving and the truck passed by, and after a while I found myself in a coffeeshop writing and crying and crying and writing and clenching the pen so hard my hands were cramped, and no one knew that the girl writing was the girl screaming for her life and that all I could see was blood and all I could wonder was why the hell I was thinking of doing this. So I wrote for a long time, I wrote a lot of crap that I still have to type into the computer, but it didn't matter what I wrote because eventually I looked up and realized I had won. Writing saved my life. I picked up my backpack and coat and walked out the door, and it was then that I realized that the sun had come out, and there were rainbows in the puddles on the ground, and I was just so glad and thankful that I was still here and I still existed and that I must be worth something if I had conquered this. I danced for a bit, and sang under my breath, and smiled at the sky. And I still do.

~Eire~

i am trying to conquer

• anorexia and my food
• drpersson
• loveing myself like i love my friends

those are the big ones that are mostly fought

• Heather :o)