Little Pile Of Me On The Ground

ok i though we neaded a place where anyone can just colaps into a little pile of you on the ground. bitch, yell, cry, sing, laugh, anything you can just be you. tell abount your past and what you where like befor then after camp. or just become a LittlePileOfMeOnTheGround

Too much!!

The past three weeks I've been looking for a full-time job, and having difficulty even getting interviews. Maybe I'm keeping my expectations of what I can get too high or I'm looking at everything the wrong way. Then, yesterday I actually get a job offer, but to make it worse, I'm actually strongly considering turning the offer down because it's a travelling job where I might be away for a whole week or two weeks at a time, and I won't even get more than a couple days off at a time. Not even weekend days. No holidays. The pay isn't *great*, but it's Ok for Albany Oregon at entry level, about $1400 a month plus commission. The other plus is that it's a travelling photography job, but this too is also a downside at the same time because it'll be Wal-Mart studio photography (I can see all the unhappy little children at this very moment). So after all this, I may turn it down because of the risk I'll see my girlfriend Mel B. and my friends a measely 4 days a month. That's not even worth getting an apartment for which is one of my MAIN reasons for getting a job in the first place!! I'm thinking of keeping my eyes northward, maybe get a job in Salem.

Making things more confusing, I miss my wonderful family which lives in Michigan (my home state) and I don't know when I'll see them next.

Also, I want to go to NBTSC this year (it would be my first time) and I'd like to do it as long as I'm 19, I would feel like I could fit in better that way. Besides, the idea of really close friends appeals to me to no end. I hope I'll be able to go, but I'm not assured of this, especially since I haven't registered don't currently have the funds, and I don't know which session I want to get involved in.

AND FINALLY... two of my best friends, both which were involved in a close relationship for the past two or three years (can't remember) just broke up today (or at least, I was just told today by E-mail), due to completely unforseeable circumstances, and now I'm feeling helpless. Bwahhhhh!!! Sighhhhhhhhh...

-Luke

Not the Wolves?!?!?! Oh, jeez. Email me, LukaLuka, if you wanna talk. Sounds like you could use a couple of crying shoulders...and believe me, I sympathize...it's scary to be shoved out in the world, especially so far from home. ~Maggie

Ohmagod! Luke? The wolves broke up????? email me, boy... ~Jasmine

I've had depression since I was 6 years old and now, at 20, it's still ruining things for me. I don't have a job (I REALLY REALLY want one) because I cannot handle it emotionally. I can hardly get myself to eat and or shower for goodness sake. I also don't have my driver's license yet. I was getting better with all this, and taking my medicine like a good little woman when geuss what... my and my boyfriend/best friend ever/lover broke up after going out for three years. OUCH.

So now I have the fun of putting my life back together while getting over him while being his only friend (it's pathetic in a way but I can't desert him now) while my family is going broke and my 95 pound dog keeps trying to maim my brothers friends (she's sexist I geuss, only goes after the guys)

My saving graces are God and writing and that beautiful person I love named Samantha. -Aeris

Ah, the simple joys of maidenhood!

Yay.

Right.

Just felt like...sharing. Uh-huh. Bye now.

~Wind