I had the idea for this page the other day. I periodically have intense bouts of extreme insecurity and self hatred, or else really wonderful periods of absolutely loving myself. So the other day I was just feeling so awful and insecure and all, and I thought "we need a place to talk about OURSELVES and what we REALLY feel, not just the face we show the world." I'm not sure if there's already a page for this or not, but anyway, just write your experiences in self esteem, your day to day feelings about yourself, stories, gripes, frustrations, things you absolutely love about yourself, how gorgeous you sometimes think you are, whatever! Love you all, Becky J. I put on this great show of self-confidence because I heard that people who are self-deprecating drag other people down, and are thus avoided. So I pretend that I have all this confidence and direction and I don't let on about how I feel inside. If people are attracted to people who like themselves, then maybe I can fake it so well that it becomes the truth. But so far, I feel like I'm stupid. I have voices in my head that I can't stop, and they're always saying "Eireann, you're stupid. What a stupid thing to do, you're disgusting.." etc. etc. I feel clumsy and awkward around other people, like I mess everything up. When I stand away and say nothing at all, I feel invisible and sometimes that's even worse. I compare myself to more pretty, interesting, graceful, intelligent people
tonight has been weird for me as far as self esteem goes. about 10 minutes ago i felt like the most pathetic, evil, loser that ever walked the face of this planet. i was just down on myself. wondering why nobody loves me, knowing that nobody ever will... and in the past 10 minutes, a complete stranger, one that i've only talked to online a few times, was reading some of my stories and told me that i have "a sexy mind." and those three little words, from somebody i don't even know, just made me feel like... perking up a little bit. even if nobody i really care about loves me, at least i can impress the odd stranger, right? <smigh> I just posted a response to something Jasmine O. wrote near the bottom, just some feelings of mine on self esteem.~ Jasmine S. Shit. My self esteem fucking sucks right now. I don't know why. Ok, actually I do, but it's such a weird, screwed up, pathetic reason for feeling bad about myself that I don't even want to admit that it's bothering me. But it is. Alot. Damn, what do you do when you're obsessing about someone and feel like you have no life, and want to be happy and free, but just aren't? God, I wish I could just give up all of this insecurity and realize that I'm actually priceless. But am I? Who knows. ~The highly discouraged Becky~
I looked at myself with another's eyes And found what I'd been thinking unbeautifull Is that to which I aspire. Rosy cheeks. Bright green eyes. Slim self. Curved fingers. Mayhap I am beautifull after all. ~Wind i am in a REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY bad mood this evening my computer wont work right FUCK this ir really PISSING me OFF ARUGH!!!! i feal unwanted,unloved,unliked,tired of giveing and never reseveing, not loved by unschoolers,forgoten,depresed,sure that no one has remembered my birthday this comeing month,not noaticed,taken for granted,tired of fealing like this,wanting to be loved,fealing like shit,looking like shit,not getting anything in repayment from my kindness,loveing ppl that don't love me back.... make me feel better pleas? Heather heather....email me, okay? roo at hoosierlink.net Let's talk. ~Jasmine i look like shit. bullshit. you've got the prettiest eyes, and you're swoonariffically cute. uhm... thank you... Wow. I did something this morning that I haven't done in a long time. I put on nice clothes (good khakis and a nice, form-fitting black top) just because I felt like it, and I put a little bit of glitter on *laughs*, and I washed my hair and let it dry naturally so that it curled up really nicely, and I sat in front of a mirror and admired myself for a long time. Egotistical, yes, but also a huge self-esteem boost. I haven't just sat down and looked at myself and said 'damn, I look good!' It was actually really fun. And I've been sitting here lip-synching at times, singing along to all the cds I bought, occasionaly walking past a mirror and thinking about how GOOD I look. Yes, that sounds stuck-up and snobby, but I get to do that once in a while. My friend Kelli told me that when I was talking about Dan with her, I was totally glowing, and that was pretty cool... I dunno. My self-esteem has been getting slowly better and better and better, and it's really cool to actually *appreciate* how I look for once. -JessicaSkater "You have no idea what a poor opinion I have of myself Hey all you people, I have an idea for you. Something you might want to do is find a blank book, one you feel comfortable gluing things in and writing/drawing in, and turning it into an ego book. Well, I don't really know what to call it. Sometimes I call mine my ego book, or my "Life is Good" book, or my "I am so rad" book, (although that isn't really very accurate,) or usually "my little book thingy that I put nice things in." Then, when I feel worthless and like no one really likes me, I can take it out and realize that they do! Compliments are astoundingly easy to forget. Ok, this is a bit longer than I meant it to be, but I thought you should all think about this, cause it's really helped me. love you all. -marina
I'm in one of my low self-esteem moods again, and I hate myself for it. (There's some irony, eh?) It's a mild one, but still, I thought I was over this dammit! I hate this feeling. It's a combination of "I suck" and "I deserve so much better than this!" - Naela (P.S. No, this does not belong on the ThatTimeOfMonth page.) Thank you, Becky!! You are so rad! :) I tend to swing wildly back and forth, too. Though lately I've been really happy, and generally unable to figure out why everyone is not absolutely madly in love with me.[1] I'm still pretty insecure, but I'm working on that. I don't hate myself anymore, I'm just...frustrating at times! That's all for now. - Emma Great. So now it turns out everybody knows I'm a fucking directionless slacker. With an attitude problem. I like attitude problems, Goddammit. Yeah, self-esteem is not good right now. What I wrote above is currently absolute BS. I'm not very confident about myself at all. The person I show to the world is direct with people, friendly, and does all these "great things", but inside I always feel like I'm walking on a tightrope. It's a precarious balance. I depend on other people way too much to determine my self-worth, though I know it's unhealthy and I'm working on it. I go from "I'm the greatest person on earth and everyone adores me" to "I suck and I deserve to have everyone hate me" in a few minutes. Yuck. -wanderlust what emma said! why isn't everyone madly in love with me??? [1] yeah. i'm happy right now. lately i've been going from really happy (i have so many great friends everybody loves meee) to really lonely (they all live so far awaaaay) (especially in the "i want to cuddle with someone" sense :-/) and sometimes both at the same time. i'm actually more or less comfortable with being lonely for this first time in my life. that isn't what this page is about though, is it. i've generally had good self esteem... except for auditioning. if the part i get in a play isn't the part i thought i auditioned well for, i get seriously depressed for about 3 days. which is a long time to be depressed for, for me. i think that's why i've decided to stop concentrating on acting. i'm tired of getting secondary parts. i'd like to play one ingenue part, just to prove i can. but those don't really attract me either... anyway. self esteem. i can only think of one time when i've seriously hated myself... well, several times but they all delt with the same thing... i don't want to talk about that though.. great idea for a page becky! *hugs* -marina Wow! What an awsome idea for a page. My self esteem has been TERRIBLE for the past oh.. 5 months, but especially during the second session. When about half the camp seemed to announce that they had crushes on my sister and the two people who told me they had crushes on me didn't post me on the WhooseCrushedOutOrKickingItToWho page. And I'm basically just paranoid that people don't really like me, and they're just being nice to me 'cuz my sister will beat them up if they aren't. And no one who tries to help me can really come up with the right words to make it all better. My sole sources of self-esteem right now are the nice things people wrote in my directory and the icky crazy old homeless guys who hit on me in downtown El Cerrito "well at least I have a remotley attractive body even if people don't really like me... grumblegrumblegrumble..." Wow now I actually feel a lot better now, at least for the moment. Thanx for listening! I love you all!!! -Susannah
Generally my self esteeme is bad. Really bad. I'm kind of beginning to learn to deal with it tho', so generally I don't let it get to me. I do a lot better than I used to, which is good. It's not gone tho', I just ignore it. Which I suppose it bad. Hmmmm... I am more accepting of my flaws at least. The annoying thing is, I always used to feel really good about myself emotionally. I didn't like my physical apperance, but I loved my personality. I saw a spark of something in me.. creativity or caring or something.. now I can't seem to even appreciate that. I don't particularly think I'm a horrible person or anything, I just see myself as being really.. mid-range. Really normal. Sometimes I think "If I could just change this.. or this.." things would be better. But somehow I don't think that would help all that much. I think it's more of an innerself thing than anything.. I feel bad complaining about myself to other people these days. I used to do it so much a couple of years ago that people got sick of it and now they won't really listen to me at all. They either say I'm being silly or compliment me. I don't want compliments. I want someone to honestly tell me what they think. I want someone to tell me how I can improve, what I can change.. so that I can change it. Because, to be honest, I'm not sure what it is that's so wrong with me. I can't pin point it. I don't know. Maybe I AM being silly. I feel silly. Zen ya fuck I'm right there where you're coming from too, and I've been learning something lately so here goes; faking it helps. I don't think it's as fucked up as it sounds - if you fake creativity, fake some fucking confidence, it kinda grows on you. on some level sure fuck I still hate myself, but on a couple other levels I genuinely like myself and it feels so fucking good it Has to be helping. When I feel stupid or dull and just mouth the words "ya screw that, I'm going for the fucking gusto" in my head without even slightly meaning it or believing it, it still helps a lot. -Miranda Yes, yes! I hate it when people won't listen to you, then you really start to believe something IS wrong with you. That's the reason I started this page, so we could all just say what we really REALLY feel about ourselves without people constantly saying "But you aren't that way at ALL!" But I also wanted to create this page so we can all SUPPORT each other when we're feeling horrible about ourselves. (and you are NOT silly Zen!) Because alot of the time we may feel something about ourselves that just isn't true because our self esteem has become so warped from constantly thinking bad thoughts about ourselves. Sigh... so yeah. I could go on and on and ON about my self esteem problems, and I probably will eventually, but right now I don't really feel like getting into it all... But I want to thank all of you guys so much for writing on this page and making me feel like I'm not so alone!! Sometimes talking openly about your problems is the hardest thing to do... I love you all, Becky I wholeheartedly agree with Susannah and Zen. I have always been in the shadow of my brother. and he's always gotten the attention I wanted. and the love of the people that I wanted to notice me the most. I've always had friends that were mine, and not his. but I have lost some of them to him. and it hurt a lot. it always does. low self esteem has always been a problem for me. I have never found myself to be pretty because no one ever told me I was. some times I would glance in the mirror and actually think I was pretty. but there's always that feeling of self hatred. I still don't think of myself as pretty. or fun for that matter. I think of myself as selfish, and not ugly but plain looking. not exciting at all. it's always been a problem. and it probably will always be a problem. but I know. that everyone here who has low self esteem isn't ugly or unloved. they're just never told so. you are all gorgeous and wonderful people. -Lydia R. This is pretty cool. Hopefully a page like this will help people feel better about themselves, instead of stuck on thinking about things they don't like about themselves. I'm gonna give it a shot, but I'm not sure if this would make me feel better or not, I could see it doing two different things. It could either have me realize that these things that I hate so much about myself aren't important at all and it's silly to put myself down... or the very opposite, and once I'm done I could feel ugly, dull, unintelligent, fat, boring, stupid, unlikeable and not loved. Now, I don't know if this is good of me or not, but reading some of these things about other people makes me feel better. Because I see that I'm not the only one that's insecure... people whom I really admire and definitely think are very awesome, outgoing, smart, attractive, and kind people. These are incredible people. Anyway, most of you know Lareina. My sister. I love her to death, but she's caused me the worst self-doubting thoughts in my life. She's an awesome person, most definitely very fun to hang out with. I don't know anybody that she doesn't get along with (besides, ironically, my best friend...another long story), we've almost always been together, we have always had the same friends, we're sisters, there's always people comparing us, and there was and may always be a sense of competitiveness between us. ...And so, I compare MYSELF to her. I notice when people notice her, when guys like her, the things she can do, when people hang out with her, when 'my' friends hang out with her, when she is more popular, when she is more outgoing, when is everything I feel I am not and cannot be. I don't think I am jealous of her, I am happy that she can have all of that, and I wish that she has that... it's just, she becomes everything I am insecure about. And it's hard to fight that. Only real recently have I been better about it. I hated her even at camp, this year. I've hated her for about two years now actually. But I didn't hate her because she made me feel bad about myself, she's always had me doubting my self-worth. I hated her because she became really mean to me in those years that I felt more insecure than ever. And I felt there was nothing worse then feeling unloved by the one person I loved the most, and nothing worse than her treating me like nothing when already I felt like nothing because of her. But something I've come to find out and realize only recently is... she treated me like that, because she felt threated by me. She was jealous of me. and felt everything I felt. Funny, how life goes. So anyway. What am I insecure about? Most of the time... I'm afraid people don't like me and that I'm dumb. Also, that the only way I could be liked was if I was loud and outgoing. I'm insecure about my looks, my body. I've been told I'm unapproachable. That people think I'm stuck-up. It's not true, I'm just scared of people. Well.. this is really long. so i'm going... -amberlee
WhaTEVER:) just figured i'd write..*rachel* I have pretty bad self esteem most of the time, i'm getting better..But i always feel so guilty cuz whenever i'm honest about how bad i feel about myself, people think it's necessary to tell me how wonderful i am how wrong i am and shit. It feels so manipulative, so i try to give out positive PR like, hey i'm self confident and happy, let's not talk about depressing things, let's be perky and sparkly! This is something i've been trying to do less of, but now i just seem more quiet and depressed just cuz I don't want to seem fake. And it hurts to see my friends hating themselves, i know they don't deserve it. But when people tell me the same thing, i just know how wrong they really are. So. Self esteem is a good thing; if only it was easy to acquire, and give people. How do people with low self esteem still manage to be liked? It always amazes me that people could love me when i don't love myself. But people do. And i love so many people who hate themselves, i love them for the little shreds of bliss and joy and confidence they still have. And if i'm being honest with myself, i know i love them for their weakness and vulnerability too, it's easier to be friends with desperate people, they need you. It's a trap, but a very seductive one. Oh yeah, and what's the difference between high self esteem and an ego problem?? Jenny
Maybe self-esteem is knowing how good you are, and an ego is thinking you're better than you are. Or maybe an ego problem is when you're incredible self esteem start's to get annoying and you start saying things like "I'm so wonderful, everybody is in love with me," and meaning it. But then again there are people who have ego problems and also have shitty self esteem. Isn't that a paradox? -Susannah i think that maybe having an ego problem is when you think you suck, but you try to project the image of being awesome to everybody else, so you're constantly talking about how great you are so they'll like you, & they just end up thinking you have an ego problem. *shrugs* that's what i've noticed anyways. Part of what Jenny said above... I'm always wondering why people still like me when I don't like myself as well. I mean, can't they pick up the bad energy from me or something? Lots of times I think of myself as repellent to people, but maybe that's just me. -wanderlust Ok, just somethings to ponder... and since this has everything to do with self-esteem, egos and what not, I thought this is as good place to put it as any. And I just didn't know where else to post this (not all that familiar with wiki yet). I have a couple questions, and if anybody would do so, please share your thoughts on these things. Do you think unschooling/homeschooling helps with self esteem? Do you think most un/homeschoolers think their 'better' than people who go to public school? Do you think that? Do you think 'public-schoolers' think their 'better' than un-/homescholers? I had more. But I forgot them. So, that's a start.
Being that I've been, and know people on, both sides of the fence, I think I can answer the second question (atleast from my experience.) Most unschoolers seem not to think that they themselves are better than schoolers, but that they're in a better place and have more positive and worth while experiences than schoolers. I could be wrong on this though. I thought that I was better than schoolers (when I was in school incidentally enough) though not because they were schoolers, but because those particular people were assholes. ; ) I think schoolers can be limited at times, but not that they are lower beings. There are many cool skool kids. I don't believe most skool kids think they're "better" than us because most of them either don't know or don't care that we exist, and we, therefore, don't cross their minds long enough for them to form an opinion. hehehe. Those that do know and think about us usually either assume (wrongly) that we are all sheltered, friendless, super-religious nerds whom they are cooler than, or (if said person has met an actual unschooler) that we are quite insane and/or cool. Well, that's my $200 worth. I apologize for the length and for all those parentheses. : ) - KimW. What I want to know is why all my wonderful beautiful friends who are the most amazing people in the world have self esteem problems. Whoever wrote that above..i so agree with you! these are like all my beautiful amazing people..and they're all so hard on themselves..they're WAY better than they seem to think. -Robby yea your right robby...it's just... when i don't have someone to hug me and stuff...i wonder if people really care...and if they don't, why not? and it's easy to get off track like that... -kimberly self esteem. hmmm. it's weird for me. i don't usually think i look good, or am pretty or anything like that. sometimes i don't think about myself one way or another and then other times, how bad and gross and ugly i am is ALL i can think about, and it just wrecks my whole day/week/month.(depending on how long it lasts for)when ever i feel unloved, i usually tell myself it's because i'm really not worth loving, and somehow make it into my fault.~sarah compton I often go through periods where I don't feel good about myself at all. And although I shouldn't do it, I still get...this line of thinking . . . Like, nobody has ever shown me I'm worth anything, you know? Like I feel very boring and average most of the time. Then I'll have these fleeting times when I think "well hell, why doesn't anybody like me, I'm nice and I'm loyal, aren't I?" I am so damn mixed up, I'm surprised nobody has committed me. It's natural, I know, but still! I end up idolizing people. People that I think are more beautiful than me, more shiny, more glittery...and more loved by other people. And then whenever I am around these people, all I do is beat myself up about how much skinnier they are and how much prettier they are and how they get so many looks from guys and I feel like a stout, ugly shadow. You know, I've never had a boyfriend, I've never had a relationship, I got my first kiss ever on the return trip from camp on the train. I've never had someone have a crush on me, I never have guys hit on me or look at me or flirt or ask me out. I'm not easy but I am very likely to say yes to someone if I like them and they ask me to ____. Like at camp, there were a very large number of people that I would have loved to kiss or have a fling with or just enjoy hanging out with and flirting and holding hands, for Christ sake. I don't think I was standoffish. I don't think I came on too strong. I don't know what I did. I do know that I am not attractive to most males. And I would love to know why, but nobody can really answer me, I guess. This ... this is one of those nights where I really need someone to call me instead of me calling them. But somehow, I don't think it's going to happen. ~Jasmine~
Jasmine S. At camp is where i have the most self esteem, because i am surrounded by wonderful people who i love, and i'm constantly being loved and giving love. Sometimes i have really low self esteem, though, like, i drive myself crazy because i never feel like i do enough "studying" and i want to get accepted to a really good college some day, and i don't always think i'm good enough, and i don't think i read enough or do enough math, and i think i don't have a wide enough vocabulary, and i think i should do more essays. So my self esteem is sometimes good and sometimes bad. But my lowest self esteem comes in where education is concerned. ~Nell [1] But they are, duh! - Naela It's amazing, there is nothing written on this page that doesn't completely ring true for me- I've felt all the feelings described above at one time or other. And it is SO comforting to realize that so many people have felt the same self-doubts about themselves that I have. I think people start believeing that something's wrong with them when they're feeling depressed about who they are, otherwise why would they be having these feeling and thoughts? But I'm thinking that maybe every teenager feels down about themselves at sometime or other, thinking that they're ugly, boring, an unlikable person, but if we just realized that feeling this way is really just part of growing up, part of being human, and we're not just some horrible freak, it would make the going so much easier. I think we just have to realize that life has its highs and lows, and sometimes the lows can last a really long time, you just have to ride them out until you start feeling good again. Anyway, thankyou for this page! -lauren i never thought i'd be one to fall into bouts of intense depression, i just didnt think i had it in me to loathe someone, especially myself, so much. but i did...600 calories a day, 5 grams of fat. it wasnt acute, but it certainly wasnt healthy. the emptiness in my stomach filled with a hatred for myself, this body that would never meet the standards i'd somehow created for myself. at one point, i was about 4 feet 11 inches (haha short...) and 60 pounds. i could wear a size 8 in little girls, the size my 7-year-old sister wore. no one knew, i hid it well. i'd managed to convince my parents and friends, who were too wrapped up in their own lives to notice anyway, that the "weight was just redistributing itself" or "its the phys ed program im doing". im a damn good liar if im nothing else. how could i find beauty in this body, a mesh of pain and ill and bones? i was convinced that 10 pounds later, life would be perfect. i would be hit on and gorgeous and this life would be mine again. i would have control, i could stop then. its hard to leave the person youve become behind...pushing away habits like counting calories, pinching the fat in your stomach, wondering if you can get it off by next week. runrunrun, rise out of this...its interesting, trying to rebuild a life, a self esteem thats been starved. i think im getting there. i can eat now, without tearing myself apart. my self esteem, im getting it back slowly but surely -jessica st. julien (who is so extremely, immensely embarrassed for writing this and doesnt think she'll post it *mouse hovers over the save button*) mm. self esteem. when i have it, i feel egotistical. when i don't have it & talk about how i don't have it, i feel egotistical. self respect & self esteem are incredibly precious things. there is always this sense of "nobody knows really what i am saying" when i talk about it, even though i know that it happens to millions of people. but there is still this "me against the world" feeling that is almost always there, no matter what the case. it all seems pretty hopeless. *Wind feels like telling people random things about her. Sad how we have to bare our souls, eh?...* I'm eighteen. This scares me to death. Boys chase me. This scares me too. My fingernail might not grow back. (aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaiieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!) Yeah. I have a tendency to be an elephant. In the sense of never forgetting. I remember people, and their actions. But I'm incredibly forgiving, even though I remember all the shitty stuff people've done. Maybe not forgiving. Maybe just...overlooking. Except with my father. For some reason I can be really hard on him. Guys...rock. I must admit that what I put above is absolute bs, although I would never admit this to anyone for the world. Except you...two hundred thousand viewers. I don't believe in weakness anymore, I did for a time and it was not good. So now I don't. Sexual harassment, rape, all stem from weakness. I can be incredibly realistic, or optimistically know-no-bounds, as the mood strikes, usually when you want to hear the exact opposite. I delight in bothering people, especially the opposite sex. At least they'll remember you. I have a strange liking for hidden mysteries, adventures, and promises. Promises I absolutely love. And they are difficult to forgive when broken. I like things being out of control, because I'm usually out of control, inside, and when the environment is the same, I can express what Iyam. I just realised this is probably a comppletely different picture than some people get of me, than I have of myself. I like to analise things. Hate it, actually. But am driven to it, in some restless belief that I can fix it if I understand it. I don't act enough. I hate that about me. I hate and love so many things about people and myself, and almost never decide one person is all good or all bad. I see people well. I need to be alone more, in my own house. I love my family, but they bug the dickens out of me. I definitely feel the need for more general adoration, money, love, and good company. Which is so hard to find. I sorta wonder what camp will be like this year, how I'll react to all the cliques, social hierarchies and such. I really want to make things better. I'm a doer. With a laid back, sit at home upbringing. Which clash alot and make a pretty bang. I'm interested in people unless they prove themselves unworthy of it. I ramble alot. I write thousands of sentences which will never encompass myself anymore than a photograph. I like tea. I wish people were around me more. Whatever that means. I have terrible self esteem. When I get really upset I start shaking, inside at first. I prefer to take care of the problem then, but I usually let it sit inside. I have a really bada habit of turning people off by telling them exagerated faults about me, which are lies. I realise people take these seriously. That sucks. I might come up to you and proclaim that life sucks, just to get a reaction. I get reactions out of people. I love reactions. They usually make me feel good. I don't believe the world is really real. I don't believe I'll ever die. I don't believe there's anything that can't be fixed. I don't believe in dress rehearsals, every life is a performance, every dress rehearsal is a life that someone isn't living to the fullest. No one can ever live to the fullest I think, they can only die to the fullest. When I die the death that I don't believe in, I'd like it to be for something good. Like the name of Christ. Hell, who am I fooling, I don't believe in death and if I did I'd want to die falling out of a plane, or on top of a mountain from old age and exhaustion. Check that~exhaustion'd be a terrible way to die. Exhiliration. Extreme exhiliration. Yup. Like everyone else, I live for the person who will understand and love me, and for really *living*, living wildly and exuberantly. ~Wind, hoping this is really too long for anyone to attempt readage of, or if not, confusing enough to be thoroughly understood.~
self esteem is.. a large issue. i'm not feeling badly now. i'm feeling mellow, and if it wasn't so hot here, i'd be perfectly content. but content isn't what describes me. because i think about it, and it's just my body that's content to sit here in front of the fan forver. my brain is teeming with things that haven't happened yet. things i need to make happen. a life i have yet to live. i've been worried lately, that my dreams won't happen. that i'll procrastinate my life away. which is a huge fault i see in myself. i mean, it's all well and good to joke about procrastination, but.. eek! i have to get offline. <sigh> well i'll finish this later.... NBTSWikiWiki | Recent Changes Edited 80 times, last edited on August 13, 2001 by eireann@nbtsc.org. © 2000 NBTSC Webmasters |
and everyone seems to be better than me in some way
What I do is whenever someone sends me an e-mail or letter saying something nice, or thank you cards, or just things that make feel feel warm and fuzzy inside, I put them in my book. I also put in poems and lyrics that ring really true for me, especially inspirational ones. I brought it to camp and had everyone write in it instead of my directory. I printed out my
