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I cannot say...
what I truely mean.
It just never works
it's like beating my head on a poast
over
and
over.
I just cannot say what I mean.
I cannot say...
what it is like to
love someone so so much
it makes your tears burn and sting.
It makes your heart swell, sore, and shatter
just by being with them.
I just cannot say what it's like to love someone this much.
I cannot say...
what its like to live in a
lala land.
Where children /don't/ cry,
people /aren't/ raped,
old people /don't/ die,
and pritty girls /aren't/ starveing.
For I know all too well
that this land
is just a
lala land
and it isn't real.
ThreeOhTwo I cannot say what it's like to love someone this much I'm sick of love and I don't know who I am my calander is trying to remind me and it isn't working. Tomorrow is another day another day to pretend I'm not jealous another day to try and keep up she told me long ago to walk instead of run but I run anyway she told me to dry my tears and stand up straight so I did.
ThreeOhThree Tomorrow is another day. So what if today was wasted. So what if it was a horrible day. Go to sleep, when you wake up it will be tomorrow. and tomorrow is another day. You can do what ever you like with it. Go out on an adventure. Let the wind blow your hair around. dance in the rain, laugh at the thunder. sing loudly while skipping down the sidewalks. It's a whole new day.
Three04Don't cry honey don't cry. You know you're alone, 'tis true. But don't cry, honey, don't cry I am here in spirit with you. Laugh at the thunder, please babe If you don't I'll cry too. And men can't cry for they are made of brass And the brass would tarnish From the tears Take my golden canary You can do whatever you like with it You are Papa's only little bird. ~thunderr~ ThreeOhFive I am here in spirit with you. Though we may be separated by a thousand miles or more. Your face, your smile, the way your voice sounds when you sing. all are still clear in my memory. like you were still here with me. but you're not. you left long ago. and you took a part of me with you.
Three06The way your voice sounds when you sing... Flashback I remember A day Too long ago We sat in the damp field singing while the dancers danced We the singers sang It was living beautifull, wasn't it You and I And I remember The way your voice sounds when you sing. ThreeOhSeven I remember A beautiful starry night. we went out dancing, looking more beautiful than ever. We danced and danced until we were too hot and tired to dance any longer. Then we went out, and sat on the grass. silent at first, then quietly singing. singing beautifully to the stars.
Three08 The maiden sang to the stars beautifully, Singing beautifully to the stars Sing a song of grieving For my love is dead Sing a song of passion For he died a passionate death Once my lover went to sea Sojourning down to the deep For the great sea-giant to fight For all was not well in the sea He sang a song of farewell Promising soon to return Never again shall I trust warrior's promises He lives in the house of the gods. While I, near the sea, nearly burn. Alas the sea-god was too strong For my gallant friend and ere-long The news of his valiant death Travelled up o'er the waves to my ears. I weep for him. The mermaid was silent. ~thunderr~ three OoooooHhh nine I can't beleve
it
I let myself love you so deeply and for
what?
For my love is dead
now.
Nouthing is
left.
You killed what I
had
And for
what?
For what did you kill it
for?
You killed it for me I
guess.
We both neaded
out.
But now I shall never
love
again
We both needed out of this fire it's burning my heart how about yours? I know that all I need to do is run but you're holding my hand and you can't keep up I shold just leave you by the road but I'm scared. Damn it! I'm always scared scared of love fire it hurts it keeps me warm I'm always scared of being invisable scared to love scared to not I'm scared of you kiss me? Three11Damn it. I'm always scared. Scared of what, though? You have been through pain, and you always come out headfirst. You have been through sorrow, and afterwards you always weep and dance with joy. I guess you're scared of the fools who will laugh. Darling they'll laugh anyway. They will laugh anyway. ~thunderr~ ThreeTwelve Are we really made of brass? Not me. Nothing quite so solid as that. More like wood. Unvarnished, unpainted, hard to bend. And when the tears come (They /do/ come, by the way, though not terribly often) I shrink and shrivel And think I'm about to break. But the water just makes me more flexible Breaks down my long-developed stiffness and shows me how to let it all go. I'm always scared. Every time I'm drenched by the water I think this time it really will break me. But it doesn't. When I'm dry again I look back at the layer of my thick skin I've just shed And sigh in relief. Siiiiiigh.
Three13When the going gets tough When the tough get going When the sun also rises When the caged bird sings When the fairytale ends When the sea boils hot When the diamond ring turns brass When she does her own taxes When the rain never ends When the coward is brave When the sea salt is tasted on your lips When you kiss the one you don't know Then I'll do it. When the tears come. thunderr. ___ ThreeFourteen When the caged bird sings I'll know what music means I'll understand my fear but I'll still be scared when I think "deja vou" and see your eyes sparkling you really are there watching me cry. Three Fifteen You have no shame in watching me cry You almost like it too You almost enjoy watching The tears trickle off my face And I almost enjoy it when you join me When we cry together Under the stars Nouthing else matters Our faces are sad together But that's good I don't mind being sad when I'm with you It stings when I hafto do it without anyone Just sit and cry is never too much fun It's always more fun When we sit under the stars And just ... Cry...
--- 316 When we sit under the stars I hear your heart beat I hear your breath quicken I hear your soft whispers I feel your touch So gentle and sweet I feel your lips against mine I feel your hands exploring me I feel your kisses on my neck I sense you wanting me I feel your needing me But I say No, Not now, You have to br patient I'm not ready I love you dearly, and if you truly love me You will wait... --- it's so quiet here now time passes by but I
still
feel like I'm
waiting for you if when
you return
I won't know what to say so this is mine and I just won't miss you no oh I just won't need you dead again and neither will we with our running in circles our billows pull us back in the wind
rhythm
the rhyme sing it over and over and
over and
over again
you're missing... you're missing... you're missing... one day we'll be gone... hey we never said
goodbye
Three Eighteen I just won't need you. Yes. This is the answer. To never love, never live, never leave, never need Ever Again. I can be my own strong wall I don't have to dream at all Ever Again. Hidden in my lilac patch of thinking and wait. ~thunderr~ three 18 's not comeing back. I wont nead you ... I just won't need you.
These are my only words that will feel nice.
I won't nead you.
But what if,
But what if I do?
I just won't need you I tell myself again.
Your gone and I can't get you back ...
So I don't nead you
Right?
I don't nead your hugs
Or your soft words,
Your beatings
Or tickles ...
I don't nead your songs at midnight when I can't sleep
I just won't need you.
I'm a stronger person without it all
Right?
I just won't need you.
I just won't need you.
I just won't need you. (Oh god) (I nead you)
ThreeTwenty You're gone and I can't get you back. You've gotten yourself in so deep, and I don't know how to bring you back. I want to help, to reach in and pull you out, wrap you in my arms and protect you. keep you safe and warm. but I'm afraid to follow you. afraid to go in after you, and pull you out. because if I do, I might fall in too. but what is life without risks? and if anything is worth taking a risk, you certainly are. So I reach out to you. and if I fall in trying to get you out, at least we'll be together.
321, a haikukeep you safe and warm I don't know if I know how To do otherwise
Rest now, child Fret no longer Harm will not befall you You obeyed my orders As from my hands you fled the Potential pain of knowledge Far away where I can not touch you Keep you safe and warm To do otherwise would be wrong Secrets must be carefully protected as Insanity spreads That evil can dwell among those with The most innocent eyes Into the most Innocent minds My eyes are old But still I know The mind percieves the world as full of fear Which twists reality into A thousand Thousand stars And there is enough To satisfy the cravings That the response of silence creates Fear is very beautiful when Reflecting from your eyes Onto me I don't know if I know how To alter my future actions I will try Doumo sumimasen Hikari no ken
323 Thousand stars light up my eyes thousands of stars just from you just to me thousand stars rideing up my back into my eyes into my hands into my soul then off to you thousand stars from heaven alone lost on there stary way to your heart but they will find there place i know they shall for they are my stars sent from heaven alone to you
ThreeTwentyFour Just Us (for a girl none of you know) Light up my eyes like you used to you used to light up my heart but now you look out your window of the car and I look out mine we are both singing along to the radio and we are both thinking of smoething I can tell but neither of us asks what let it be just us again finding love in each other and catching fireflys in our hands light up my heart again I know you can break through what socioty thinks and hug me ignore what people say and dance with me on the sidewalk light up my life like you used to I still love you. 325We are both singing along to the radio, And I can tell without looking that we're happy. Summertime-happy. The kind of happy where you're driving along With a cherry sucker in your mouth, Singing at the top of your lungs to the Beatles, Or anything else you know the words to for that matter, And raising your eyebrow Seductively At the boys whizzing by in cars you'll never see again. Baked-black asphault, sandals sticking and flopping. Bare shoulders slick, hair frizzing and flying. Tanktop low, shorts short along your thighs. "Where are all the hotties anyway?" you say, and laugh. I laugh too and yell "There's a depletage of hotties here!" And then we both snicker for awhile and keep our eyes open. And even if I never see that One Boy Even if no one stands out in a crowd Or catches my eye, I'm Summertime happy. Sister happy. And I'm gonna fly. ~Becky~ 326 I want to fly into your arms forever I know I will Someway somehow She showed me my wings All I hafto do it use them now I'm gunna be ok And I'm gunna fly.
(who dreams of flying) ThreeTwentySeven Who dreams of flying? A girl. A fluttering inside the ribcage A readying of long-forgotten feathers A Rising sound in the throat Feet like the ground (wind likes the leaves) ..But for an instant ground/grass/air!/feet too soon: ground/grass/feet Your family the stars is calling you... So far away
-------------------328Your family the stars is calling you... did you not notice the sound? We are here, so far away and scattered all around Hearts afire, across an open sea, How can it take so long? But across the lonely distance You can hear our song
ThreeTwoNineWe are here, so far away separated and yet so together Forgive us if we look at the screen for one more second before turning to discuss tomorrows plans It is just that the keyboard and desk and chair seem unreal, even compared to a couch, a keg of magic juice that exists in a hundred individual minds So real that we must stay with it and keep it together with all our seperate hearts So real, more real than the furrow between your eyebrows when you struggle to realize you don't understand your own child.
330 Forgive us if we scair you a bit its not our fault we don't mean too Forgive us if we bite you a little too hard or if we make out Forgive us if we step on your feet and make you wake up (someone needs to right?) forgive us if we make you sad from the truth or make you laugh at pain or hate love Forgive us if we make you Cringe Forgive us if we make you Uncomfortableforgive us for we are just two girls in love one
ThreeThirtyOne it's not our fault we came so close but i swear it i swear it's not our fault if i could take on all the blame if i could make you believe me i'm the one to hate if i could take down the heavens & you could believe it was me i would to save you from the pain of knowing that's just the way the world goes i wish i could stop this i wish i could know it was my fault it would be so much easier to believe it but i don't hold the world in my small fragile fist so here we are without a clue i loved you but love like pain sticks fast far too long & disappears without a trace far too quickly. kat ThreeThreeTwoThat's just the way the world goes. Flowers grow in the cracks in the sidewalk. Sometimes they stink but they're there, big and purple. I just wanted you to know that.
333I just wanted you to know that you mean a lot to me and it's just a fact like the flowers in the sidewalk and the gunk between your toes but much nicer than that.
threethreefour I just wanted you to know that you are no longer on my agenda of people to care about today I just wanted you to know that you are no longer on my agenda of people to think about today I forgive, I forget, I move on but will you? ------ -335-you mean a lot to me like the stars and the sky the flowers and the dirt the bees and the honey we go together like puzzle pieces I would run up the phone bill just to hear you laugh Although we are not in spitting distance I still love you girl -jekissa three hundred thirty-sixWe go together like puzzle pieces assuming you're using pieces from a million different puzzles It's like an impatient child took us and smashed us together and forced us to fit... even though we don't I guess it's like putting a square peg into a round hole - you can push and push but in the end, all you get are two pieces that are stuck to each other.. and maybe even fit but they never look quite right
ThreeThirtySeven all you got were two pieces stuck to each other not fitting, but impossible to get apart i can only assume that's not what you were trying to make but don't complain about squished toes melt your outlines and conform a bit comprimise i'll even do most of the work and the day we finally fit is the day we can break apart
338I look at her... face made up body barely covered in the latest trends giggling, talking about boys and the upcoming school dance and she's happy surrouded by all her friends I wonder why she even bothers to talk to me anymore I know I don't fit in and I know I'm not trendy and she looks at me and tells me "maybe if you just... melted your outlines and conformed a bit you might be happy" What she doesn't understand Is that I AM happy... I'm content to lead my own life and do the things I love So I smile and nod and I walk away
NumberThreeThreeNine so i smile why do i find that smiles on people who have had longer to be sad are the most beautiful but tear drops on teenagers are poetry unto themselves? when i die i'm going to be one of the beautiful people i'll walk around santa barbara and throw sparks at you make you smile make your eyes glow. i'll be the one to make the pavement glitter. 340I wish I knew how to make you smile these days, it seems like the impossible task you sit there and talk about death and how good it would be if you could just get away from this life of yours you say that no one cares about you and I practically die if you only knew how much I care about you I try to find the words to let you know the love I feel for you but all that comes out is a sigh and with it, the feeling that I'm losing you
three forty one I wish I knew how to let you go let you become your own being without me i wish i wish
i wish
i wish i knew what you where thinking that night when you dumped me off your love (i wish i knew how to love again) when words fail my own to lips i knew love had stoped inbetween you and i then why why
why
why
did we still try?
why did you still try? did you think we had a chance? did i think i loved you? did i still try? no i didn't think so
sometimes
words fail my own lips
mouth
grace
and kindness
then i just nead to walk away ...
... walk away
forever
ThreeFortyTwo I just need to walk away but I can't I'm stuck to you like bread dough baking in the heat of embaressment at what we have lost Three Four ThreeI'm stuck to you all I see is you I dream about you I can see you out of the corner of my eyes but I turn to look at you and you're gone. -jekissa I dream about you. You're here, or I'm there, but it never really matters where we are. We're together again, that's all that's really important. We hug, we dance, we sing, and i wake up, a little less lonely. --Kathleen ------You're here I can't believe it! You're here! Such rejoicing hugs and kisses laughter then silence oh, the silence the novelty has worn off we sit on the couch and we watch tv no need to talk we're satisfied with just the presence of eachother and I know it's love -*jekissa* ThreeFourSix? I never write poetry Never had the want Couldn't think of a reason to Do I need a reason to? I don't know that the reason matters should I write about love? I don't have much love right now should I write about hate? I don't have much hate right now should I write about friends? I don't have many friends right now. should I write about peace? then silence that I have right now Nick 347I don't know that the reason matters why should it? you'll forget anyway. I can't even remember why anymore why
why
why
you ask, I give the normal "who cares" and we move on -jekissa ThreeFourEight You'll forget anyway. You already have. But that's ok, because I remember. I remember quite clearly. It was the last night. We stayed up until 3:30am dancing. I think we could've danced all night, but everyone else was sick of listening to the swing music. So we stopped. And you forgot. But that's ok, because I remember. It's still one of my favorite memories.
ThreeFourNine It was the last night but also the first inkling of things to come when you'd take your shiny new self home and see how it would fare against the life it no longer fit like a circle forever trying to fall into the triangle that was but could no longer be unless you pounded and forced and bound your circle into triangleness again which would royally suck can you stay so free flowing changing everyday for the better more than not? we shall see - Jausserande
Three-Fifty!changing everyday that's me I can't describe it exactly I don't notice it but it's happening. my feelings torwards you have changed today it's a bad day but they've changed for the better you've brightened my day I want to say I love you for it but I can't you'll take it the wrong way. -jekissaNBTSWikiWiki | Recent Changes Edited 4 times, last edited on June 13, 2001 by ::ffff:24.8.190.53. © 2000 NBTSC Webmasters |
